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They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death. Revelation 12:11
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TESTIMONIES |
They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death. Revelation 12:11
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I was born in a traditionally catholic family. I came out at the age of 17. Despite acceptance from my peers and family, I was still depressed and wanted to die. I prayed to God to take my life and even attempted to kill myself. Back then he didn't realize that it was because he was living in sin and the enemy wanted to kill him. I first learned about the Gospel when I attended my friend's funeral. I heard the message of Jesus about eternal life for the very first time and I was intrigued. I began wanting to know more about Jesus. I then became a Christian but retained my homosexual life style. I read the Bible and prayed regularly but I still haven't completely given my life to Jesus, that is my every part of my entire being and existence. I wanted to go to a church that would tell me that I was born gay and God is pleased with homosexuality. So, I learned pro-gay theology and follow it. I went to pro-gay churches and even advocate pro-gay theology to people. But after the break up with the man whom I thought to be the man of my life, I began to hate him and other people; every day I woke up with the desire to die and I prayed for it. I masturbated almost everyday or a few times a day while watching porns on the internet, all kinds of porn. However I knew the name of Jesus, but not the power contained in the name, through the Holy Spirit. God's word says (John 4:15-18): " “If you love me, keep my commands. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you."
I hadn't made this promise mine yet, I still wanted to be an orphan and it's really difficult to be without a father. I couldn't even understand that it was my own doing, the fact that I identified as gay and not as His son, that brought depression, sadness, and suicidal thoughts to my life. But God is good and through His Son Jesus, who is God Himself, who became flesh to save us from sin and death and to give us an example of a man of God, everything is possible. Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.” (Mark 10:27) God began to convict me about homosexuality until one day I just couldn't deny the reality that homosexuality is definitely a sexual sin that I needed to let go. After four years of being a "gay Christian", I repented and embraced the true teachings of Christ. I have then since been walking faithfully in the identity that God has given me: a child of the Most High. I no longer identify as a gay Christian but simply a Christian. God has used ex-gays and their testimony to bring me to the truth about this particular issue. Have you ever heard of a transformed life because of science, false religions that teach good deeds and efforts to appease God who is holy and perfect, rituals, violence, and dietary regulation? Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6) and only making Him the center of our life we can be healed from all addiction. Not only God has lifted homosexual desires from me but He has also made me fall in love with Him and He has shown me why I had these desires. It was because of some problems I had growing up, my relationship with my parents and friends. Jesus is not just a hobby, or a monday morning, or just an hour per day. He wants to be the center, the life, your life, my life, so that we become His children today, so that the Holy Spirit abides in us (1 Corinthians 6:19). Alessio
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Patrick Smith
8/8/2016 02:19:38 am
Thanks for sharing your testimony. I am going down a similar road. My desires are slowly fading and I am good with that.
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8/8/2016 05:55:10 am
Having, and growing in, an identity in Christ is foundational in every Christian's life. And especially true in breaking strongholds in our life. Love His story in your life! Keep sharing how He has saved AND transformed you. The world needs to know there is both salvation AND power in His name!
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God bless you. This is such an encouraging to me personally.
8/8/2016 01:36:46 pm
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Morey
3/7/2019 01:37:03 am
I admire your seeking for truth with your heart and mind. You give many the the facts that God loves them and is always ready to forgive and to give all the helpe needed to live a righteous life according to His ways; which are best for the whole. Thanks
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Kimberly
5/1/2019 11:37:45 am
God also set me free after 17 years of homosexuality I am happy that he did the same with you
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Kay
1/30/2020 12:25:34 pm
Thanks alot for really pouring out your story for some of us to be blessed by it I am still struggling but I know God is powerful enough to life that feeling away and I will someday share my story to encourage others.
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